why

Why no one understand how I feel?

All I want is to play with dore. But I was stop by either my parent or his mother. Bro always says I no right to interfere. Am I part of the family? Or I am adopted? How come I feel so neglected. I love dore. I bet he feel the same cos he always love my company. But no one seems to see our love.

Even my dearest small fish.. I just want strait times newspapers from her. But she question me and ask me lots of questions. This is call family? Is this call trust? How come everything I learn seems so different.

Even my bro choose to believe his wife. We are sibling for 20 plus years. Yet he trust his wife more than me. And he never give me a chance to explain until I force him to listen to me. Even though he realised that it is not my fault and apologise. There is a scar in me. I cried so badly in the toilet, in the bathroom, in the bed at night and in my dreams. My eyes hurt badly.. My heart bleed badly..

All I can conclude is their love for me is no longer the same. Even though they claim its the same. I am not stupid nor dumb.